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Blue
03:42
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I feel blue and I don't know why
I wanna be myself, I try
What does it mean to be myself
I think I'm acting like somebody else
I feel blue and I don't know why
I wanna be myself, tonight
What does it mean to be myself
I think I'm acting like somebody else
Last few years('ve) been wasted
feels like I've just waited
For something to happen or someone to come
and now i feel numb
Instead of interacting with the world I was lurking
and never even got a tattoo
I know i didn't do much but I was working, on growing as a person
and still I feel blue
I feel blue and I don't know why
I wanna be myself, I try
What does it mean to be myself
I think I'm acting like somebody else
I feel blue and I don't know why
I wanna be myself, tonight
What does it mean to be myself
I think I'm acting like somebody else
Whenever I find my deep desire
in the corner of a strangers smile
To play my part I know I need to set myself on fire
But the power to give myself up has been gone for a while
Frozen in place
I won't confess that I'm unfree
The prmoised constellation of the planets and the stars
is irrelevant without me
that's why I feel blue
I feel blue and now I know why
I'm gonna be myself tonight
What does it take to be myself
I think I'm acting like somebody else
I feel blue and now I know why
I'm gonna be myself tonight
What does it take to be myself
I think I'm acting like somebody else
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2. |
Human Machine
07:17
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When nothing feels right
I'm isolated
You're not a machine with broken parts
You're a human being with unmet needs
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3. |
Prisoner
05:34
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I need space
What are you doing to me
I don't care what you say, don't care what you do
Can't you see
Don't come close, I'm not over it
it shows
I don't care what you do, don't care what you say
at least that's what I'm telling me
I don't want it
I don't need it
But you say I do
I don't want it
I don't need it
What have I done to you
That you're treating me like a prisoner
That you're eating me up 'cause I won't tell ya
How I'm feeling, what I believe in
I am everything that I'm needing
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4. |
Things That I Miss
05:13
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What does it mean to be on your own?
How does it feel to be all alone?
I don't wanna think about my future now
But it'll catch up eventually I know
I'm scared of being responsible for myself
So how should I be able to take care of somebody else
Everyday I tell myself that I have get my shit together
And I know time will make it better
What's the matter with you?
Feeling kinda empty
What is keeping me together?
Imprinted on my face I frown
Faceless outside pressure
They say I'm gonn' be okay
But what the fuck do they know
Grimaced violent fissure
Looking at me like I'm prey
I look into your eyes
And it feels so familiar
I can not really say why
Isn't that quiet peculiar
I'm looking right into the abyss
And I see all the things that I miss
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5. |
Solitary
04:42
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I can exist on my own
without feeling alone
My friends I try to avoid
because I'm getting annoyed
Why should I waste my time
pretending to be fine
when really I am not
so don't put me on the spot
I'm not doing what I should
Instead I'm making music
I'm not doing any good
at least that's what you think
And if I'm totally honest
You're right I'm procrastinating
But if I'm totally honest
At least I'm not intoxicating
myself anymore
myself anymore
I think I'm better off
than before
I need some time for myself
myself, I need some time for myself
I need, I need some time for myself
Some time for myself, I need some
time for myself, I need some
time for myself, you know
I really like you but I
need some time for myself
I can exist on my own
without feeling alone
My friends I try to avoid
because I'm getting annoyed
Why should I waste my time
pretending to be fine
when really I am not
so don't put me on the spot
I need some time for myself
myself, I need some time for myself
I need, I need some time for myself
Some time for myself, I need some
time for myself, I need some
time for myself, you know
I really like you but I
need some time for myself
I'm not doing what I should
Instead I'm making music
I'm not doing any good
at least that's what you think
And if I'm totally honest
You're right I'm procrastinating
But if I'm totally honest
At least I'm not intoxicating
myself anymore
myself anymore
I think I'm better off
than before
I need some time for myself
myself, I need some time for myself
I need, I need some time for myself
Some time for myself, I need some
time for myself, I need some
time for myself, you know
I really like you but I
need some time for myself
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I want you to come around again
Because you are a welcome distrain
From what is going on in my brain
It feels like a hurricane
Again again again in my head
Imagining what we could've had
You're the reason why I get out of bed
But still you leave my message on read
Now I don't even know your name
'cause I'm ashamed, my self consciousness to blame
I tell myself that I prefer it this way
'cause I'm too weak to ask you out on a date
So I stay 3 meters apart, and gaze at you
This way you won't break my heart
I could ask you if you'd like to grab a cafe
But I don't, 'cause I prefer it that way
All I see in you a projection of my desires
(All you see in me is what you wanted to see)
When I find out that you are imperfect it expires
(You kept your eyes closed to the real me)
Immediately I reject the idea of you and me
(I am not a doll for you to adore)
'Cause you're not - what I expected you to be
(Your rejection is expected)
All I see in you is a projection of my desires
(All you see in me is what you wanted to see)
And when I find out that you are imperfect it expires
(You kept your eyes closed to the real me)
Immediately I reject the idea of you and me
(I am not a doll for you to adore)
'Cause you're not (Not just a distraction) what I expected you to be
(Your rejection is expected)
I want you to come around again
(I'm never coming around again)
Because you are a welcome distrain
(I am not just thunder and rain)
From what is going on in my brain
(The storm's just starting)
it feels like a hurricane
Again again again in my head
(never ever ever ever again)
imagining what we could've had
(I think it's better this way)
You're the reason why I get out of bed
(Go find another!)
But still you leave my message on read
(I just have nothing to say)
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People get killed
by the ones who think that they're serving justice
what justice is this
I think I don't know anymore what trust is
Please can you tell me
how the color of our skin is a reason to butcher
someone with a family
someone with a future
How should we save the planet if we're not able to take care of ourselves
I am the enemy, and so is everyone else
It's 2020
We are the enemy
We are the enemy
We are the enemy
People get killed
by a virus that too many think is fake
refusing to acknowledge
until they're coughing and start to ache
Is it too much to ask
how hard can it be
to put on a mask
and don't fucking stand right next to me
If the whole world could sing a simple song together
We'd be a rock solid flock like birds of a feather
We wouldn't just be friends in fair weather
Constantly fake like imitation leather
Music is the thing that unites us all
From a pump up jam before a boxing brawl
To elevator music at a local mall
From a national anthem at a came of football
To the star wars theme during the opening crawl
What's the point of fighting? It makes no sense
How can we stop police from stomping necks
Bombs dropping from jets?
Creating more war vets that swear so much you think they had tourettes
It's a sure bet the whores will gore the poor some more yet
I'm starting to think that we're the enemy
A virus cleansing the earth from humanity
How should we save the planet if we're not able to take care of ourselves
I am the enemy, and so is everyone else
Will we destroy ourselves or will nature take itself back
Will earth be able to cure or will we turn the sky black
It's 2020
We are the enemy
We are the enemy
We are the enemy
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All my troubles seem so far away
Although they're standing right next me
A thunder
Striking near me
To uncover
When I'll be ready
Gone under
But still here
I'll surrender
When I'm ready
There is something I can feel near me
Wandering around getting ready
When I'm at my weakest I'll see it
But I don't wanna hear it now
All my troubles seem so far away
Although they're standing right next me
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What it's like to have everybody
In the palm of your hand my darling
Could it be that you're also lonely
And that you're anything like me
Is what you're showing on the outside
All there is? Is there something you hide
Could it be that you learned to disguise
What you're really feeling on the inside
If we could exchange our lives
Would your glory days be mine
Being the one
I wonder if I'd like it
Pretending to understand me
So they can get a piece of me
I don't know if it's something I like
But I don't know what to do with my life
x2
If we exchanged our lives
Would you go from the start and
Climb back to where you are now
Oh you must be so smart oh you charm everyone
What is it like
to be the one
What is it like
to have everyone in the palm of your hand
What is it like
to have to not rely on anything but your looks
What is it like
not to be misunderstood
Wonder what you're thinking at night
(Crowded thoughts and lonely inside)
When everybody's gone for a while
(Not even sure what's on your own mind)
Long small talks for a while
You learn to keep a smile
Conceal what's on your mind
Cause that's not what they care about
What it's like to have everybody
In the palm of your hand my darling
Could it be that you're also lonely
And that you're anything like me
Is what you're showing on the outside
All there is? Is there something you hide
Could it be that you learned to disguise
What you're really feeling on the inside
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10. |
Anxiety
06:01
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I've got a green light to go
and I think that everyone else gotta know
But when I look closer I'm not sure anymore
if it's green or a red, not sure if I should go
So I look at the others to see if they move
but all they do is stare straight into my soul
I gotta green light to go
and i think - everyone else knows
I can't see, I can't breath,
I fell like everyones' eyes on me
I know no ones watching, so I don't know why
I keep getting nervous, I keep getting high
But still I can't help it, must be low selfesteem
Seems like everyone's just waiting on me
I can't breath, I can't see
must be my anxiety
I can't feel, so what's the deal
Why am I so anxious 'bout your appeal
I can't sleep, I hope I stay awake
'cause I've been running running running running all day
I've got a green light to go
and I'm starting to understand that I can heal, but
I can't feel, I can't move, I can't breath, I can't see
must be my anxiety
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11. |
Addiction
03:56
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I need your here
always near my dear
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12. |
Okay
03:51
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I think I'm broken, at least this is how it seems.
You say I'm broken but I don't know what that means.
What does it mean to be okay?
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13. |
Milkshake
06:19
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I'm an ice cold killer with a milkshake
When I'm coming around your time is up mate
If you hear me slurping, boy you better run away
You know there's no escape and you only delay
My Milkshake brings all the boys to the (grave-)yard
And damn right, it's better than yours
I say my Milkshake brings all the boys to the (grave-)yard
And damn right, it's better than yours
You know there's no escape
You know it is too late
You either come with me
Or dead is what you'll be
My milshake is empty
This is not how I planned things to be
You are the enemy
So I'll lead you astray
I'm an ice cold killer with a milkshake
When I'm coming around your time is up mate
If you hear me slurping, boy you better run away
You know there's no escape and you only delay
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14. |
Normal Things
04:55
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If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands.
If you're sad then don't show it, build a fence.
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DHXP Cologne, Germany
Hey there! I'm a german producer and artist. My debut album, released on the 12th Februrary features 14 tracks with
different genres, reaching from lofi and synthwave to grunge and metal sounds. If you like what you're hearing I have good news for you: A remix album is already in the works!
I occasionally stream on Twitch, doing livelooping or playing some of my songs.
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